The Begining

All around it's obvious what season is upon us; Christmas! There have been Christmas decorations out since Halloween.Although now that the month of December is really only a matter of day's away,I am very excited. I am ready for the music, the decorations, the cookies and pies, and the presents!

Life is full of surprises. I went from being curious about life and what the future holds, to watching it unfold in front of me. Remember those day's when you were 6 and the idea of becoming an adult seemed so far away? All those dreams looked so far away, that in the mind of a 6 year old, it felt like it was never going to happen. Then that 6 year old blinked, and now adulthood is here. I couldn't wait to grow up. Now I have heard that being grown up isn't all it's cracked up to be. To an extent that is true. I have to work, and pay for things. There are times where it's stressful and you would love nothing better then to go back to being 6 years old again and not have a care in the world. The silly thing about it is that we would go right back to wishing we were adults if we really could go back to being 6 year old.
It's kind of odd to think that I am more then half way done being 20! Yet as the year 2011 comes to a close, this time a year is great time to look back and see how far you come and where you are now. There's something about Christmas that makes me really look at where I have been and then prepare myself for the new adventure that the new year will bring my way. In alot of ways i already have a glimpse of that new year. Yet even as I am writing this it's all new and exciting at the same time. This is the part where I would normally say that it's also a scary and nervous time as well, but there is a verse in Hebrews that takes the scary and nervous part out.

" God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect." Hebrews 11:40

Knowing that God has everything planned out and ready is a comfort. sadly however my sinful nature does seem to come into play when it comes to the future. Though as I am looking into the future from what i can see. I really see God's hand in everything. It can be frustrating when it feels that no body understands where you are coming from though. I really wish that i could just let people have an inside view of my heart and let them see that I really know what I'm doing. I'm not rushing, I'm not going to slow. When i see where and how things in my life had played out and how much God is in it. It does make sense to me. yeah it is nice to have people understand, but some day they'll see it for them selves. I just have to keep moving forward and not get freaked when there is no one that understands what I see.

It's all going to make sense within time. =)

Don't you love mystery??


~ Brandy

What Is This????? =0

So lately I have been quiet honestly freaked out by the way my life is falling into place... I find this funny because if I remember correctly, I wanted answers, and I got them alright, and my face looks like this...




I'm not joking. Then I have to stop and think. Really Lord???? Is this really how it's going to be??? Sometimes I am satisfied. Even joyful about what's in front of me. Then there is the other that I stare at and think no way. Why do we do that to ourselves?? I mean if it's meant to be it's meant to be! I am so guilty of doing this! I am such a worrywart i guess. It's so sad. The message yesterday in church was about DO NOT WORRY. I know that this was totally me. So this is what I am going to do. I am going to seek God, with everything. If I feel that i have answers look into scripture and trust that God knows best for me. Wanna join me????

Who am I???

There I was standing with my first bride of the day, and she was wearing a dress she never thought she'd love. She was looking in the mirror and running her hand along the lace gown. You see lace was the last thing she wanted. She thought she wanted ruffles and even alittle bit of bling. Yet here she was staring at herself, in this gown, and she looked radiant. She turns around to face her family and friends who were equally shocked. She just looked at them as the gave her their comments,and she looks at them smiles and jokes with them, " who am I?".

Don't we all have moments where we ask our selves that very question, but on a serious note? I was asking myself this morning this very question. Why would God send His son to die for me? I mean really I am so not worthy of that kind of love and devotion from someone as perfect as He is. It's quite a thought.

~ Brandy